Finally

Finally
I don't need to kill or destroy
Plunder my mind my ego,
I don't need to do anything at all.
No need to act, to change, to become something else, to be a chemist and create less of this and more of that,
All illusions, tricks of the mind to keep me occupied in mazes of unanswerable questions, questions that lead to nowhere real.

The shift is now, the veil can be lifted now,
Immediately
And what light, what joy, what awe,
I can do nothing but cry, but even my crying is nothing to the Senseless
I simply empty
Shift
Stop opening my eyes to the outside, but 
Turn inward turn inward
Why is it so hard to see your own light they asked
Why is it so hard to love ourselves as we do someone dear to us, to see ourselves as the light we are always trying to find in others?

The answer has always been inside
In that meeting place inside
Where the merging happens
We look for someone to tell us 'yes, it is true!’ 
In their reflection, we hope to experience It and know It and then know that we have been searching for It all along,
But turning inwards, what a wealth there is, It has always been there,

I only needed to open.
Finally the great saints, they all make sense, “Just be open” "You can do it now and in 30 seconds, it is not a trick”
“Turn inwards to see the light in you that you were just seeing in the other”
"Turn inward turn inward to the heart to the left to the heart”, 

Yes! it all echoes and reverberates around me now,
So loud
Like a giant hollow cave,
these words come bellowing back and settle into the Home where I sit,
Finally.

*2016